Moving along...

Still progressing.....albeit slowly. Anyone speculating about what I'm actually doing? Kind of doubting it, but I'm having fun all the same.

Try something new and see what happens!

What a day....

Hard as you try, some day's it's impossible to not let things get to you. It's tiring trying to carry the load with no help, no one to lean on or anyone to really talk to when it all gets to be too much. To make things worse there's still no job in site and no ideas as to what to do when the options run out.

I spent some time today at the park with a good book hoping that it would pull me out of my funk, but I got home and my mother, with her "I want to rip your head off" voice, accused me of being mean to one of my grandchildren. The worse thing I said to the child was for her and her sister to stop grouching at each other. I didn't even raise my voice when I said it. Gez Louise.....I can't ever win!

Lord willing someone will call tomorrow for an interview and the door will be opened for that much needed job. I also have my special project to try to keep my mind occupied. :-)

Reflection......

Reflecting on ones life can prove to be quite interesting. I've always thought that I had some pretty good accomplishments, but maybe not overly exciting by world standards. The truth of the matter is that for the most part my life has been mediocre with reasonable accomplishments with nothing to write home about. It's funny actually. In my quest to change the direction of my life I've found that I actually stopped "living" years ago. I've been doing the expected and not many of the things I wanted to do. It doesn't make me mad or anything, but I much prefer the way things are going now, not the lack of a job of course, but all the rest. I actually feel awake and alive for the first time in a very, very long time. I don't think anyone around me sees anything going on yet, but I do and it's such an amazing feeling. Sometimes I actually sit and chuckle, thinking if they only knew.......it's still not time to share, but soon.

Have a great day everyone! I know I am....